His Sovereign Will

As some of you know, I've been going thru a hard time the last few months. And I haven't been trusting God like I should. To tell the truth, I've been falling away from him. I feel beat up... mentally and physically, and even at times I feel numb, because of all that has happened really in the last year. I don't get stressed out very easily, but lately, I get stressed out about everything. Same thing that happened to me 2 years ago, when I was getting sick and they thought my appendix erupted, but then the doctors finally said it is probably stress. Well, that has been happening at night again. I haven't felt like myself at all lately.
When we were in VA, I was able to meet a friend for coffee Wednesday night and she was so encouraging! It was one of the best parts of the trip. She is such a dear friend! God really used her to get to my broken heart.
For the next few days I was able to see God at work again. I was able to pray again, and I felt like he was listing for the first time in a long time. And on Sunday, my family went to Kingsway, and how great it was to be with our church family again! It was so encouraging! And worship was amazing! God once again used the song God Moves. And when the first line was sung, I just broke down in tears. "God moves in a mysterious way, His wonders to perform." Wow! "He plants His footsteps in the sea, and rides upon the storm. Deep in His dark and hidden mines, with never-failing skill, He fashions all His bright designs, and works His sovereign will." Never-failing. I get a lump in my throat just thinking about it. And he fashions all his bright designs and works his sovereign will. Isn't he amazing? For the first time, I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. It seems like the storm is passing. I'm not sure how long it's gonna take, but it's starting to.I love the part in the 3rd verse, "The bud may have a bitter taste, but sweet will be the flower." Things are gonna be hard, he allows them to be, but in the end he has a perfect plan for it all.
A new year has began, and I don't know what I'm gonna do, where I'm gonna live, who I'm gonna marry, or what 2011 alone holds. But I do know one thing... he knows. And he is going to work his sovereign will!
I use to think, God has plan A and plan B. And if plan A didn't work, he always had plan B. That is all just a bunch of mumbo jumbo. He has 1 plan, a "bright design", his sovereign will! And he has known about it since the beginning of time. In verse 2 of the song, it says, "O fearful saints new courage take, the clouds that you now dread, are big with mercy and will break, in blassings on your head. Judge not the Lord by feeble sense, but trust Him for His grace. Behind a frowning providence, He hides a smiling face." A smilling face. See, he knows what's coming, and I can't wait to get there! But then again... he has his perfect timing. Let his will be done!